Hello, it’s been such a long time since we’ve talked last and there are so many things I just want to say to you. First, I want to say how sorry I am to have missed so many important things in your life, like your high school graduation, your very first boyfriend, your college graduation and most importantly, I’ve missed you. I still don’t understand what had happened to our friendship, our sisterhood, everything, but I hope that we can put that in the past because you are so important to me.
Mommy and Daddy have said time and time again that it will take some time for you to come around, I have tried to be so patient, but I miss my little sister, I miss you so much and it is so sad because I know nothing about you now. I never want to wish this kind of pain and hurt on anyone, because through these years it’s felt like I’ve lost some part of me and it was because you have been missing from my life.
I am so proud of the woman you’ve become and what you’ve accomplished, the first in our Family to graduate from college, that is such a great honor and I am proud of you. Thank you for taking the place of being the big sister to Kristine and Kisha, because they have been able to look up to someone with so much ambition and drive, something that I lack, I look up to you. My genius little sister who didn’t give a shit about the opinions of others, I wanted so bad to be like you, strong willed and smart. I looked up to you and gloat about you and your accomplishments to my friends, to Bryan and anyone who’d listen.
I’m getting married next year, to Bryan and man does he make me so happy. He’s really ambitious and strong willed like you, mommy and daddy really like him, KC too and maybe even Kisha. Bryan is really great, and when he says hi to you he’s not trying to be an ass, he’s honestly trying to break this tension that has been built up for so many years. It’s so funny, when Kisha was sick and we had to pick she and mommy from the Naval Hospital, all Kisha wanted to do was go back home, but mommy forgot her keys. Bryan climbed up the wall and got in through a window to let mommy and Kisha back into the house. Kisha thanked him and he was so happy because he thought that his efforts were finally making some progress. That’s what I want, a little progress, nothing too crazy, not just yet at least, but it would make me so happy to have you attend our wedding. Obviously it would break my heart to not have you come but in the long run I think I would understand.
I love you very much and I wish that things weren’t like this; I wish you and I had the same relationship we had back when we were young girls. Now we’re both women trying to find our place in this world, but I would out of everything love if we could make amends, I want to make this effort because life can be hard especially without my sister.
I love you, thank you for taking the time to read my letter. I hope it finds you well and I hope that there is still a place in your heart for me.